15th October - day one

A little glimpse into today:

Rise at 6.00.

Morning Practice at 6.30 (Ania's flat) The guest doesn't show up, opportunity missed ...

Receive early morning phone call from my cousin in Wrocław, always very welcomed. She is actually my eldest cousin, over 40 years old now, and one I only recently established relationship with. I thank her for calling - is her calm voice and inner peace going to set a good tone for the day?

I go back to Żwakowska flat for a light breakfast, then head off to Mikołow to book the place for my father in the rehabilitation centre. I have a very good sense about the ward, and the staff seems very nice too. I have to wait some time for the head of the ward, but no worries - I have How we do things with me to read.

Afterwards I visit my dad in the hospital, he is actually not in his best spirits today. Well, it's almost 4 weeks he already spent here, but good news is that he'll be going home in about a week time!

JotD.

Eat out today. I'm not that hungry, so ask the sales person what is the difference between a big and medium zapiekanka - 'the size' - she replies. Well, that's alright then.

Back in Konfederatów Barskich apartment. Drink some camomile, my head is going to explode, big headache. I have AT lie-down and allow myself to fall asleep for an hour, it helps a little. Another cup of tea and write an email.

Then I leave to meet my mum for a movie in the cinema: Women. I laugh and enjoy it, although not my cup of tea at all, hmmm, isn't it surprising ?

My friend got in touch re: our practice - it's good to hear from her!

Then head home, to Żwakowska flat, that is. My mum asked for one friend today, whether he still plays guitar - yes! actually, he is in Spain attending his first GC course right now! Coincidence?

My mum is getting ready for bed and I play for her quietly, attempting to create the welcoming space for sleep.

AT lie-down, writing, and one specific task I commited to. Good %10.



And some notes/comments related to today's experience/the course work:

Participation in the course at-a-distance requires attention throughout the day, but giving this attention doesn't separate from life as it may seem, it actually makes more full engagement with it possible.

If impressions are kind of food - then I know why I sometimes get indigestion.

What one needs often goes against what one wants or likes. Discrimination is required...

Discriminating between what is imaginary and what is real - how this becomes possible ?

I experienced a lot of kindness from people around, and also from some that are usually withdrawn and stern. This I believe is related to two things: the attitude I approached the day with & the ongoing process that is larger than what I do.